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FORgiveNESS

Forgiveness means to FORget the wrong and GIVE your heart to God to mend it. A few years ago, a 'friend' really hurt me. She was someone I was not close to but just had a habit of 'paving' the way for me.  At first, I found it childish that she would say things about me that were not true and would read several meanings to my actions or words. At first I thought she would stop, but she didn't. Because I was not a talker, I was waiting to see Karma catch up with her; but Karma never did. When my other relationships began to get sour based on this assassination of character, I just internalized the hurt and tainted my perspective of everyone; everyone was sent to hurt me. Next, I isolated myself and drowned in my pain . I was hurt because my actions were constantly misconceived and it seemed no one  gave me  a chance to show them who I was. I let hurt cloud my judgement and reasoning. I have experienced a lot of identity crisis in the past trying to b...

Painful Experiences.....

Wouldn't Life have been so beautiful if you did not have to worry about certain people, and what they do or did?While settling down to have my breakfast a few hours ago, I just thought of the few sweet people that have come my way this year. It did take me a while to warm up to them, if you know what I mean. I'm asking myself, 'are they phony?' , 'do they really care?', 'what's in this for them?'.. That's what happens when your mind has been messed up, and sadly your heart has been sliced into two as well. As I gleefully poured blueberry yoghurt into my oats, I shook my head in pain. How did I ever make it through that season of anguish and bitterness? It seemed like yesterday, but at the same time it felt like a  totally different dimension. Honestly, I felt a twinge of pain unconsciously going down memory lane, but I quickly looked at how far I've come. I may not have accomplished a lot career wise, but I am stronger; firmer in my decision...